Ambien is a Hell of a Drug
by Eli Hodapp
My plans to bust jet lag by staying up so late in Spain seemed to have actually worked, surprisingly enough. I had no problem both sleeping and waking up at normal American time… With a little help from Ambien. That drug is incredibly scary to me. The warnings it comes with are full of mentions of how you can do things like prepare food, place phone calls, and tons more in this crazy state of half-sleep that you won’t remember.
I experienced that in France, but in a entirely beneficial way. It had seemed like I had woke up at some point in the night, and responded in a fairly intelligent manner to some emails. That’s cool, I sleep, my body works. I could get used to that. Things last night seemed OK, as when I actually woke up for real this morning I felt great and was ready to run all the errands I had to do before leaving for GDC tomorrow.
I rolled over and mashed the space bar on my computer to wake it up to do my normal morning cursory Twitter/email/Facebook check, and I discovered that I had written myself the above note at around 5:00 AM. Creepy, right? After some additional investigation, it didn’t seem like I did much more than that.
I really wish I knew the context of this note. It seems almost Matrix-like in that I was definitely asleep as far as I know, but was leaving notes to myself to wake up. That’s scary. What’s absolutely terrifying to me is to think that I could have felt like I was in some kind of distress this morning, but couldn’t fully wake up to deal with it. Who knows what that distress would be, but still.
I think I’m done with Ambien. I haven’t fully committed to flushing the pills I’ve got left, but I’m definitely not bringing any to GDC. I posted this image on Facebook, and basically everyone I know who responded agrees that Ambien is horrible. What kills me about that is it works so well. I’ve never had any kind of sleeping pill, prescription or otherwise, that is able to keep me sleeping a full night.
Other than that, I ran a ton of errands, got my hair cut, went out to dinner with some friends, and generally bummed around.
Flying to GDC tomorrow feels entirely too soon.